Tonight...

Tonight...
I prayed that rain will wash away the heart's pain,
But the wind came and caressed my skin instead,
It told me the sad fate is not mine to fight,

Tonight...
I saw how beautiful a shining moon could be,
A circle of hope that reappears even with the darkest skies,
It whispered and I heard, never to lose faith or might,

Tonight...
I wish, I wish, that it'll not just be a dream,
To hope and find yesterday's happy memories of us,
With you by our side against the dying light.


Al-Fatihah, Abah.

That's What It Meant

Wanted to write something for Halloween but I ended up with this instead. Well, just proves that men plan and God laughs. Cheers!

When I was a lil’ baby

Everything appeared to be so easy
All I need was my Mama
To be treated like a Godsend diva
Abah was then a workaholic
But he’ll come running at one tiny prick

When I became a toddler
Things got even better
I learnt early from Mama how to spell
Little words like mouse and bell
I would read and even sang
Although ‘bawang’ became ‘bayam’ with a slang

When I grew up as a kid
We once had ‘Nasi Ayam’ as a lunch treat
Parents joked that I should pay for it
I said ‘Yes’ even with fidgety feet
My precious 10 ringgit then flew away
I was so shaken, they paid me back that day

When I was a cute young girl
It was life in a fantasy world
I dreamed of castles and princess
Wearing beautiful gowns and dresses
We watched lovely Snow White together
Or so Abah thought as I went into slumber

When I became a school student
New subjects had to be learned
Languages and words made it so awesome
Numbers and digits were just plain gruesome
Mama would sit with me for homework everyday
I want to escape but she’ll just look hard and said ‘Stay!’

When I find myself as I am today
Those memories appear like blooms of May
Abah and Mama have since aged with grace
Together, they have had a family raised
If someone should ask later, is my life well-spent?
I’ll just answer rightly, that’s what it meant

Because You Are My Friend

Just a personal piece for a rainy Tuesday :)


You called for me that fateful day

Perhaps you saw that I was alone
I wanted to leave, you asked me to stay
You joked that even in fear, it must not be shown
I was happy and smiled without end
Because I knew I’ve found a friend

You called for me in those youthful years
Wherever we went, we were never apart
In times of grief and seasons of cheers
Read books which we thought made us smart
I sat with you when you couldn’t stand
Because you are my friend

You called for me even as adults
We met for lunches to cling at lost times
You seem to have changed, through nobody’s fault
Happily living with baby and rhymes
I continued to struggle, knowing hope is around the bend
Because you’ll be there as my friend

I called for you out of the blue
Hoping you’ll be around come what may
When only silence passes through
I knew you had chosen to turn away
My heart bled, my trust shattered beyond mend
Because I thought you were my friend